Updated 8-21-15

Now quiet and peaceful babbling brook,
serene and majestic a breath from above.
At peace by the rock, still with the water,
The breeze carries the calm and the fish takes it farther.

Crabby red crawdads scatter about,
butterflies flutter,
and the birds play around.
The sunlight dances on top of crushed glass,
playfully teasing the dew on the grass.
Dragonflies zipping and toying about,
The fish gracefully swimming without making a sound.
The bird she now flies, just learning how.
The earth and the sky did quiet this down.

In Flight

In Flight

I could have said no, or just pushed away slow.
Now time for my choices to feed my life's growth.
Don't know what comes next, don't have to invest,
but to go with the flow and give of my best.

I could have gently backed away and gone on as before.
So much was learned, but I want to learn more.
I live to respect, accept and let go.
And i'll continue to learn what I need to know.

I've enjoyed this life for what it is, it's Rocky roads and Banana Splits.
Each day that comes now is fantastically new.
The sun is much brighter.  The skies are more blue.
New friendships are made and family acquired.
Surrounded by those whom I truly admire.

My wings did mend.
I now can soar.
My life's in flight.
It's my dance floor.

~LGN 7-29-15 (updated 1-30-15)

Weakness

"Don't show weakness to the weak.
They may devour you of all your meat.
They may take your spirit, for none they have.
Because they are the lonely and they
are the sad." ~LGN

Shadows

A beautiful heart that breathes today, colors of joy, will not fade.
A homeless anger, that fueled the fight, will fall and perish, before the night.
A love that's strong and picks us up, is forever love that fills your cup.

The shadow follows behind the cat. Hidden alleys and virused rats.
She waits to pounce, for she's at play...
Her warmth and softness meet the day.

It's in the oven, savory salt.  A tinge of sweetness, no one at falt.
Crossed broken bridges, to feel warmth in light,
To become the better, stand and fight.

Yourself, is you, nowhere to hide.
your silent truth, It is your life.
Your shadow will not go away,
embrace it's cover, your soul be made.

At times we know the lines are crossed,
we spoke too much and over thunk a thought.
So now stands still, the words of green,
What comes next, what does it mean?

~LGN

Forever Love

"A beautiful heart that breathes today, colors of joy, will not fade.
A homeless anger, that fueled the fight, will fall and perish, before the night.
A love that's strong and picks us up, is forever love that fills your cup."

LGN~

It's just morning

It's now becoming morning, a struggle through the night.
Found some moments I could doze, but something wasn't right.
Taking time to contemplate. the meaning of this life, it's been a long road.

Found some time for me to think and realize.
I hold the only key, to regulate my life.
Was a heavy Cross to bear, when I finally understood.
I'd have to learn about me, to finally feel good.

It's just morning, but the light came.
The day is here.
It's just morning, the same as anything
and I'm here.
It's just morning and the airs clean.
I want to breath.
It's just morning and I'm living.
Happy to be me.

I had a haunting thought, what would be the cost?
If I let it all fall down and create another loss.
Talking to myself at length and surfing through the fear.
If I can manage this, tomorrow will be clear.

Nobody gets to choose if I'm bad or good.
If I'm going to win today, or if I'm going to lose.
It's just a chance I take, every day I rise.
When I meet the day, will I be happy or will
I cry.

It's just morning, but the light came.
The day is here.
It's just morning, the same as anything
and I'm here.
It's just morning and the airs clean.
I want to breath.
It's just morning and I'm living.
Happy to be me.

Right now!

Right now, I am here, You know my name. I was born, You gave me life. a chance to breathe. Right now, you are here. You've never givin' up on me. I'm holding on as hard as i can. This is all that i can do. You've walked me down this road before. opened closing, all locked doors. I knew I could count on You! Thank You God!

From You!

A smile from you is golden,
as the rays from the sun that shine.

A laugh from you will fill me up,
and knowing that your mine.

A hug from you will warm me,
a comfort from all fears.

A life with you releases me,
to the happiest of years.

~L

Mimi

You were my strength, you were my friend.
you toughened me up and thickened my skin.

You prepared me for the life i'd live.
I could never repay you for all you'd give.

My Grandmother some would say you were,
but more than that you were my world.
A Mother to me and my best friend,
You were yourself, did not pretend.

I love you.

Lolly.

Kitty Update! (Still pic off laptop cam)

If she could be two people

If she could be two people, she would give him all he needs.
If she could be two people, she would have time to write and read.
If she could be two people, maybe one of her would breathe.
If she could be two people, maybe one could have strength to leave. ~Lgn

Tomorrow still will come..

It's not that I don't see tomorrow. It's just i'm focused on the sun today. When life leads to smiles, I follow. and joy and laughter paves the way. Each gr8 moment goes by so fast, and every hour marks the day. If i were to know you, would you shine a bright new day? Lara Nelson 5/10/2013

Sunny "SunRise" Her First Movie

sunny's first still shot movie.  4 months old.

Video on YouTube: Sunny's first movie.

Sunrise "Sunny"

"Sunrise" came home yesterday!!!

By: Me

Revised on February 25th, 2012

He is more vast than the sky,
and the love He gives is much.
Not there before her naked eyes,
yet close enough to touch

What spreads the light upon ones day,
and cast dark upon another?
What brightens the path that leads the way,
yet blocks it for the other?

He answers in His subtle manner,
With not a word spoken,
But all she hears is the shatter,
From all the past years broken.

Again he speaks, without a word,
for proof He may not give.
To listen is a choice for her,
such as her will to live.

To listen she gives all her strength,
To hear him she may not,
But, she’ll hold on to him with faith,
To make worth the battle fought.

“Are you there?”, she speaks aloud,
“Is this the mouth you gave me?”
Once more he speaks without a sound,
She screams, “please will you save me?”

Though she may never know,
if those words He ever heard.
He need not ever show,
or speak another word.

In her whole being she feels Him,
the warmth she gets from Him,
Now she knows, no need to listen,
for He speaking from within.

Lara Nelson

At Peace

Kevin Nelson @ 10 y/o. Music is with Kevin Nelson in the band At Athens Alone @ 17 y/o

Published on Oct 19, 2012 by Lara Nelson

Kevin Nelson @ 10 years old in Gig Harbor, Wa

Song "Lie Much" by: At Athens Alone

http://www.reverbnation.com/atathensalone

Fotos by: Lara Nelson

Video Editor: Windows Movie Maker

Peace & Thanks 4 watching!

Lara Nelson ~The Power Within 2005

I found these glass beads in the yard not long after my son was taken to Ecuador.  They were his glass beads and got inspired to take some art shots.  These were lonely, sad and desperate days, but I found hope throughout it all.  This was a good day during a hard time.

I did another version of this that I put up on DeviantArt called "Reaching Out" then I painted it with smudge in Photoshop in some artsy way.

This shot, if I remember correctly (i have the original psd file amongst my 1000's of shots I've collected on my external drives) was only slightly post processed in PhotoShop, by cropping out and putting on a black layer.

All else is a candle, my fist, lighting from a window, the beads and my fist.

I found this today by accident. A second one of my external drives appears to be not working (pc wont recognize it, powers up, but does not show a drive letter).  I had a mini meltdown, cried it out for hours, while trying different usb, power cords, even shaking the damn thing.  I know sounds nuts but what I went through to protect the last vestiges of my son's and my past, documentation on his kidnapping, memories, my writings, work, portfolio, College stuff... and on and on ad infinitum, was a daunting task.

Photographs & memories seem to be what's been the most important things for me to collect, but would lose so much with the constant moving around throughout my life.

Back to the this piece "The Power Within".  Because of the insanity of BS I was going through during my son's abduction, I stopped uploading to DeviantArt and missed this one.  I am loading it first to my blog now, then I will add it later to DeviantArt.

Thank you for checking it out... Peace

Lara Nelson

10/18/2012 ~10:00 pm (pst)

(IDK why i put all that above, but I did)

Wrote 7/19/12 (Updated 10/15/12)

The weight of heavy, haunting,
pressure, pushing through my skin,
Rusty nails to put the pieces
on the walls soon crumbling in.

The anxious, bony shivers,
shakes our home into the dark,
The temporary light we get,
soon reduces to just sparks.

Thick is the air we breathe,
Keep still this heavy air,
Living mostly in silent movies,
accustomed to pitied stares.

A life still longing,
for now this our home.
Not left much on this carcass,
just shreds, flesh and bone.

~Lara Nelson